In theory change sometimes seem so easy. The reality though often looks different? Why?
I think it’s because our belief system and our fear of change. Our fear of being ourselves as we are. Our fear of the unknown, our fear of loosing control, our fear of loosing security, our fear of not being good enough, ultimately our fear of not being loved for who we really are.
This year has probably been the most challenging one. It’s no surprise though, there is a global shift in energy taking place right now. And a lot of people are struggling with it. Just look at what’s going on in the world and especially in Europe with the refugee policy. We’re all in it together!
This August I reached a point where I knew I had to change and shift my energy. Maybe I would have never taken this step if Ari wouldn’t had been in my life. She again showed me very clearly that something is not right. Poor girl, only now I realise what I have been putting on her shoulders. Horses are very sensitive, social herd animals. So, whenever we take our horse out of the herd, the horse is seeking our connection, not necessarily because they like us or want to be with us, often they do not have a choice, but because they cannot survive alone. They are always looking for connection in order to feel save. And since they are very sensitive and highly spiritual beings they immediately sense our state of mind and our whole energy field. Continue reading
Since I started to consciously work on myself, about 4 years ago, my life has become a roller coaster of feelings, emotions and thoughts.
I remember everything started with having my first healing session.
It was late summer in 2011 when I moved to Athens. I finally wanted to take my long-distance relationship to the next level. I left Switzerland for good, at least this is what I thought. I left my family, friends, job, sold all my household goods and officially de-registered from the country I grew up. I left behind my so well organised life…
That was also the time when the crises hit Greece for the first time. And my very own personal crises hit me too, to the fullest. It’s not that I had been happy really. I had the same job for over 8 years at a big corporate company, I used to hang out with the same friends, I was in and out of relationships, I had my family issues, I was partying a lot, I had my own apartment and I had a lot of money that I spent on things I did not need. I don’t want to know how much money I spent on shoes only! I thought I was an independent woman. Thinking back I had the life of a brainwashed human, completely cut off my inner being. Trying to please everyone and living to their expectations, completely shut down from my well-being, my dreams, desires and wishes. I wasn’t an independent woman, I was a scared little girl with no confidence and a very low self esteem. I wanted to be perfect and wanted everyone to like me, whereas I didn’t like myself much. I always thought this is how it’s supposed to be. Continue reading
I had a very special experience with Ari. It was a beautiful Sunday morning and I felt I want to go for a run with her. I just got new running shoes and was very excited to try them.
I went to the paddock and Ari came immediately to me to greet me. I don’t just enter the paddock to get her. I go in and usually wait until she comes to me, which can happen immediately or after 10 minutes, after an hour or it doesn’t happen at all. This time I did not have to wait. What I realised is that depending on how I enter their home, it happens faster or not so fast. It depends very much on how busy my mind is and what my focus is on. I remember I did not think too much, I was just happy to see her and looked very much forward to our time together.
I groomed her for a while, which for me became a very special part of being with my horse. It’s where we connect very fast. I can focus and be in the moment, unless there are a lot of other people around and want to talk. Of course I love to chat too and sometimes it’s impossible not too. But usually I like to be alone with my horse. I take her out of the herd to be with me and I think then it’s just fair to be with her only and not chat around all the time. It’s like when I meet a friend and this friend is talking on the phone all the time, it’s not a really nice feeling, is it? This is also why I spend mainly time alone with her. Of course I go on walks occasionally with other people and their horses, it’s always a nice change, but then it’s different. I can’t fully connect to her yet, which is absolutely fine from time to time. Continue reading